A few months ago I was struggling hard to find my own happiness. Most of the time I was feeling like my life was total chaos and I had no idea what to do to get out of the funk that I was in. I love my kids more than anything and I would do absolutely anything to make sure that they are happy and healthy but it’s so hard to keep it together. I know that a 1 year old and a 2 month old just need love and attention and that they do not intentionally push me to my breaking point but that doesn’t make that fact any less true. I couldn’t express my feelings or even really make sense of them, I felt so lost and alone. So I started journaling tried my best to put my feelings into words. I wrote about feeling lonely, unhappy and finding my identity. So many times I have heard people talking about finding their identity and I had never been able to find mine. I want to feel like more than just another mom, I need to be my own person as well and find the things that would make me happy that didn’t rely on something or someone else.
So I wrote down some the things I wanted to be: a writer, a photographer, an artist, a musician. These are the four things that really stick out in my head when I think about who I want to be so I started doing them. I started taking more pictures and really looking for beauty in life through nature, through my kids. I listen to more music and I actually try to feel the meaning behind the songs so I can really appreciate all of the work and feelings that the artists put into their pieces.
And now here I am starting this blog to help anyone else feeling hopeless. The key is to take it one day at a time, wake up every day and choose happiness. When you wake up don’t just lay around, find something to do that you enjoy and will make you feel good. Wake up, and decide to conquer the day: listen to some feel good music, draw, meditate, write, shower, anything that will get you excited about life. Life is something that we take for granted too often, our time on earth is limited and we need to treat it as that. Soak in every moment that we spend with loved ones and make the most of every moment spent alone.
Speaking your truth everyday is something that is seriously so important, positive affirmations are so great for putting out into the universe exactly what you want to get back. It’s hard sometimes to know what kind of affirmations to speak so take some time and really think about what you want for your journey to look like and write some things down. Think about where you want to be in 5 years, who you want to be, the effect that you want to have on people. After you figure out what your truth is, start speaking about it. I know that this is going to sound silly but hear me out, I want for you to look at yourself in the mirror and say your affirmations and if that feels weird start by just thinking them. You need to believe that you are all of the things you want to become and that you have the attributes that you are hoping for. “I am kind”, “I am outgoing”, “I am loving, loved, and lovely”. Notice how I use the word “am” instead of “want to be” you need to speak as if what you want is already what actually is. If you tell yourself everyday that you are kind then you will subconsciously start being more kind. I know that sometimes saying affirmations can feel goofy but they are so helpful and help so much with putting out positive energy.
Positive energy is something I focuse on a lot, especially lately. I am always thinking about if the energy that I am putting out is good or bad. You’ve probably heard the saying “You get out, what you put it.” And this goes for engery also, we need to keep putting out as much positivity as we can so that we can get good things coming back to us. I know this is so generic but when you see everything as a “glass half full” instead of half empty then your outlook on life is so much better and you enjoy the little things.
Honestly negative energy is just as, if not more important when it comes to how we feel. For example, I’m sure you have been in a situation where you went sure of the outcome but it would either be really great for you or really awful. Like let’s say an important test that could determine if you get the job that you have been wanting and you have to wait a week to get the results back. After you take the test there is nothing you can do to change the score you will get BUT you can choose to think positive thoughts instead of things that only make you worry or feel anxious. Don’t dwell on the things that you can no longer change. Yeah if you don’t pass that test it’s gonna suck but don’t get hung up on it and definitely don’t spend a whole week worrying about it before you been know one way or the other. You will feel a lot better if you don’t let the negative thoughts come in, even if the circumstances aren’t what you had hoped.
You are strong and unique, show the world who you really are and inspire others to do the same. Xoxo 😉